I recently discovered Beyond the Birds and the Bees and I'm pretty impressed by all of the stories on the site. It actually makes me look forward to the day I become a parent and do my best to do right by my kids, to prove that I can learn from my parents' mistakes. I mean, based on the thimble cup sized serving of sexual wisdom imparted on me, all I knew was that wild sex gives you AIDS.
I was terrified. I also was pretty horny for a little kid. it was a bit of a dilemma, but no one told me what masturbation was, so I figured that what I did with myself couldn't possibly give me bugs in my vagina (I had a very limited understanding of what AIDS actually was).
When the parents cornered me into telling them that I'd had sex (I was way over the age of consent by then), they responded with tears, high blood pressure, long seething lectures, and hideously inappropriate name-calling. for approximately three hours that night, I was no one's daughter by their own choice. then they changed their mind and decided to lock me up for the rest of my natural life instead. obviously, that didn't pan out (completely) either. but the fact remains that until the day I fully move out and move on, they will continue to push sexual shame and fear.
I find it kind of depressing.
reading the stories on BB&B inspires me and makes me wistful. I hope I can teach my kids the right lessons when the time comes. I wish I had been taught those lessons when my time came. Keg says everything happens for a reason, and it helps me cope.
in other news--busy busy busy! summer semester's going on now and I've got a pretty full weekday schedule. in spite of all the work, I still got two reviews done last week. Go me!
also, sorry for starting some sentences with caps and some without. it's early and I haven't eaten anything yet.
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